Ugh..

Ok, So the news..with me, your host.

god knows why i type this as tho I have readers.. I guess it must help, thinking someone's listening.

Anyway - Girl 1 finished with me, almost 2 weeks ago - her initiative, she phoned me to break up, and 5 hours later, break up, we did. It knocked me sideways in the moment, and left me upset for hours.. The fallout over the last 2 weeks, have involved her blocking and removing most of our mutual friends, opening her own twitter account, where she voices regret..

she has 1 follower - a person of her own country, who only speaks that language..
She tweets in english.. knowing who's probably going to be reading..

manipulative, much?


I had bad flu that weekend too - which lasted the length of the following week..

Then I discover that my dad might have some good-sized, Lung problems.. various tests are ongoing...

For the first time in years, Work is frustrating me - I don't feel useful right now, when i'm assured that I will be useful.. I want to crack on with real work, like I've been entrusted with for 5 years, rather than the preparatory stuff that I have to work on..

.. I crashed my car, too - I love my car, and in heavy traffic, the cars in front of me, left 3 or 4 fewer feet worth of braking distance, and I smack the car in front. I meet with the guy in about an hour, to sort payment for his damage.

I'll be a marginally happier bunny when I know I've paid the right amount, and he won't call me.. here's hoping nothing unpredictable happens - I just want it finished.


yesterday I just wanted to curl up, and not have to worry..

Do i get a cheap-ass car? do I get rid of my beloved V6 ?

don't like surprises.




:(


except of course the good ones..
'spose everyone likes those..